Name: Tec Sun
Occupation: Worship Team Intern
Favorite Verse: “Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.” – Matthew 10:39
Why this verse is important to Tec:
I grew up being a pastor’s kid. Because of it, I hated God. I hated the church because it seemed like it was about rules. There was an expectation from the congregation that I needed to be angelic because of my dad’s “occupation”.
Because of the pressure I was under, I rebelled even more than a typical teenager.
I was so caught up with worldly things that I forgot what was really important in my life. Blinded by sin and darkness, my life moved on until November 2010 when a typhoon hit the Philippines.
I remember that day so vividly.
Our house began flooding and I knew that all of our possessions were about to be destroyed. I franticly looked around our home to see what I could save. I grabbed the TV, thinking it was the most valuable, and tried to leave my house. But because of the water pressure, it was impossible to open the door.
I honestly thought I was going to die.
I lost hope.
But out of nowhere my youth pastor swam to me and saved me.
I wish story the ended here, but it continued on.
Instead of staying out where it was safe, I swam back in couple minutes later to retrieve my things. As I was searching, something fell on my head and I blacked out.
When I woke up, I swam back out as fast as I could.
I sat and cried for a long time
I cried because I was angry about how stupid it was for me to swim back in. I was angry at how selfish it was to risk my life to save some material possessions that were so meaningless after all. I also cried because I realized God never gave up on me. Even in the midst of the chaos and brokenness, there was a beautiful mess. God still remained faithful. God was trying to get my attention but I was too busy with my life. I could have died but God had a bigger plan for me. God’s work wasn’t done yet. That day I lost my old self and found who I was created to be.
I ran away from God thinking that my life would be better but I learned that, to lose myself for God, I become more who I was made to be. This verse will be a constant struggle to my life, but I know that God will never leave me and will keep fighting for me until the end.