“The horse is prepared for the day of battle, but the victory belongs to the Lord.”
– Proverbs 21:31
Why this verse is important to Jeremy:
I used to call myself a big dumb animal. Yes, it’s a line from one of the best movies ever, but it’s also somewhat reflective of my life before I gave God a shot with it. I spent 36 years chasing my own victory. And what I’ve learned in the last 4 is that when pride is what guides you it is not only difficult to love… it is impossible. I’m sorry Tiffany. Mikayla and Gabby, I’m sorry. What I discovered at the end of my journey to the top of my own mountain was not victory at all. It was brokenness. There was no satisfaction… only pain in the wake of all the damage I had created. I made it to the top… but I was standing alone. Or was I? It was in that pain and brokenness that I found a God waiting for me. A God with a far different mountain for me to climb. A God that would redefine EVERYTHING about LOVE in my life.
This verse is really just a reminder to me of the order of things as well as the outcome. It reminds me of where I came from and who I am following. It reminds me of all that I lacked in my life when I was in charge, and how that contrasts with my power and beauty and significance in Him – not because of anything I’ve done (see the first paragraph), but because of who He says I am. It gives me context for the trials I have faced in my life while boldly declaring victory over battles that haven’t even begun yet. It reminds me of God’s reckless love for me and this active, living relationship that we have together. It helps me remember that I am a warrior in service of the King. God is preparing me always. Not only for battles, but to love the way He loves. To serve the way His Son served me. All while keeping things in the right order. ”The victory belongs to THE LORD!” He gets the glory.
Am I still a big dumb animal? Maybe. Doesn’t matter. I serve a God that calls me son. He has given me new purpose, new faith, new life, and a new heart. He gets to define what it looks like for me to love and it has nothing to do with my kingdom. In trusting Him, I have learned that on the other side of loving – by His definition – is something I could never catch in the pursuit of my own selfishness… VICTORY! Victory in the form of joy, peace, freedom, hope and love. Weird to think about, but in the process of dying to myself I actually found life. That makes God’s love pretty crazy in my book. And in pursuing the craziness of God’s love, I’ve decided that He isn’t looking for warriors at all… He creates them out of big dumb animals.
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